just wanted to blog for a while. staying at home feeling bored... i want to go to church...

off to study soon. So decided to blog for a little moment. Watching mtv all time top 10:80's. Haha. Good songs.

Need to balance my life and lead my life well again. Losing control over some things. I need the power over the devil!

Its a war. I figt it everyday. I lose, i win. But i know God will pull me through. This may be a dark period of my life, but i know its a test. If i decide to pull out, its gone forever. im gonna be stronger, better, faster. Just want to be someone with anointing and with the holy spirit in me.

Thats all. :) love my life! :)

The chief sinner

im in love with love story by taylor swift! haha. super nice song man. quite girly but the song is nice.

it has been a great week, and i have really nothing to say. haha. i can just say i am addicted to the presence of God. seriously. i didnt worship God for 4 days and i missed His presence oh so much. and when i went back to worship, the feeling came over me. and i found out how much i missed Him. cant wait to get back to the presence again.

i need to pick up the guitar man. its really time to work on my worshipping skills. the ability to worship with not just singing but with the guitar as well is awesome. i just cant wait to learn more.

:) listening to the song again.

begging you please dont go.

i duno what to say. these few days have just been amazing. awesomely brilliant. brilliantly awesome. just because of God. seriously!

now i know the meaning of dream dreams when u sleep, and see visions when u are awake. that is what happened to me. i dreamt dreams that were just so amazing. visions that i saw when i opened my eyes. it was just wonderful. these visions will come to past. i know it.

i know i have po. i just cant stand why people can use po as an excuse to not come to church. seriously! i just wish that this po would just go away. but u cant blame these people, just gotta love them. :)

if i pass these tests, i know i will be stronger. more spiritually convicted. persecutions, tribulations, they come and go. but if u decide to let go, im sorry, u will miss out alot. those people that left us, and came back, u really missed out alot. its great to be running this race with the God i love, with the things i do, and the best friends i hang out with. its just awesome.

hwa chong is on the brink of revival. i can sense it. praying everyday helps too. james and junzhou are just super cool. they are like the elisabeth generation. the generation that is to lead the people that are coming in. they will be the leaders that will lead the older people. the jc, the sec 4s. just like in 1 Timothy 4:12, i know that they are going to be great leaders one day.

just read ivan's latest blog post. it is super powerful... the power of making a choice, a decision. its in us. the element of success, the element of failure. we choose. we choose what we want. we choose our future. by the decisions we make today. do we want to just study? or handle both God and academics at the same time? that is a question that i know i already have the answer.

decisions come and go. choices come, its up to you how u make them. with every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction. works in the real world, but not with God. once you give God your 100%, He will start to bless you. 150%, 200% 300%. there is not one time that God will not outgive you.

just amazed by God. these few weeks are going to be so exciting. just cant wait to see more miracles happen. outings, follow ups, services, breakthroughs. they are just going to come. its time to increase my spiritual capacity. to take all these things.

just want breakthroughs. breakthroughs are good. they are cool. revelations, visions breakthroughs. they are the things that push me on. they are the things that make me strive. just to know God more, just to get into the holy of holies. not just an ordinary life. but an extraordinary life that we lead.

thanks God.

overcome or be overcome.

i proudly declare. that my favourite colour is orange.

these few days have been good. 15 minutes of prayer in the morning with jun zhou and james are paying off. witnessed something amazing yesterday. evidence that God moves. its awesome. cant wait to see more of it happening.

happy to keep growing.

fear of God comes when you desire for His presence

the anointing shall flow through me

its good. i think i know what to do. i think.

ushering for 2 saturdays in a row. learnt alot of stuff. like really. doing section a and soloing external traffic quite good! :)

haha. thats all for now. leaving for breakfast with the f23 people. maybe gona play drums! :)

cya!

I want to see my past fall to dust and thrown away.

i actually miss all my friends. i just saw them yesterday and tuesday. all my best friends.

today was great! had meeting with eeshen just now. and it was good. learnt alot from him. thats why he is my leader!:) awesome

then we went to ezekiel's house to celebrate his bdae! it was super funny. haha. shall post up the pics tmr. im too tired today...

yeah. really learnt quite alot today. i know what to do now. :) but, for now, its time to get my beauty sleep. :P

fell in love with this song recently. i think the lyrics mean so much.

Worlds Apart-Jars Of Clay
I am the only one to blame for this
Somehow it all ends up the same
Soaring on the wings of selfish pride
I flew too high and like Icarus I collide
With a world I try so hard to leave behind
To rid myself of all but love
to give and die

To turn away and not become
Another nail to pierce the skin of one who loves
more deeply than the oceans,
more abundant than the tears
Of a world embracing every heartache

Can I be the one to sacrifice
Or grip the spear and watch the blood and water flow

To love you - take my world apart
To need you - I am on my knees
To love you - take my world apart
To need you - broken on my knees

All said and done I stand alone
Amongst remains of a life I should not own
It takes all I am to believe
In the mercy that covers me

Did you really have to die for me?
All I am for all you are
Because what I need and what I believe are worlds apart


I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
and wipe away the crimson stains
"dull the nails that still remain"
More and more I need you now,
I owe you more each passing hour
the battle between grace and pride
I gave up not so long ago
So steal my heart and take the pain
and wash the feet and cleanse my pride
take the selfish, take the weak,
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
the sin-soaked heart and make it yours
take my world all apart
take it now, take it now
and serve the ones that I despise
speak the words I can't deny
watch the world I used to love
fall to dust and thrown away
I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
so wipe away the crimson stains
"dull the nails that still remains"
so steal my heart and take the pain
take the selfish, take the weak
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
take my world apart, take my world apart
I pray, I pray, I pray
take my world apart

Im praying, praying for my team to breakthrough to 3. every saturday, every zone f service. 3 3 3 3 3 3 3 3. 3 Lord. 3. yeah. its stuck on my mind all dayyyyyyyy longggggggggggggggg.

needa prepare for my follow up tmr. lesson 2! :) its going to be better than lesson 1. cos i wont be that fierce! ... :P

the lost has become the chosen. i was the lost. and now God chose me, to lead my team. to lead my school. to salvation. to a revival. to a place close to God. i will take up my cross. and i will follow. whereever you will lead me. i am Yours.

haha. i had quite alot of fun these few days. yeah. it was good.

shall take more pictures and post up on facebook and here! :)

see ya!

i pray for 3 and 200. 3 this weekend. 200 by end of july.

i know it will come to past.